Laresa Watkins

Balance in the Chaos

Nov 14, 2017
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We all have lots to do, right? I don’t care if you have children or you don’t, if you work or you stay home with kids, if you are in school or retired, we all have TOO MUCH TO DO.

I am, personally, very careful with my schedule.  I’m pretty good at knowing my limits and those of my family, and I’m not afraid to say no when I can.  But even though I do guard our time, sometimes the everyday chaos of life overwhelms me.

For example, I lost it on Jason last week.  It was Monday, the day that I set aside for the kids and I to stay home and get ahead on our week.  We do lots of schoolwork and housework, and I plan and do things like return e-mails and other little tasks that I may have been putting off.

On this particular Monday, my poor husband sent me an e-mail asking me to do something for him, and having that extra thing to do just put me over the edge.  I shot back a quick message telling him how overwhelmed I was feeling and informing him that he was just going to have to find someone else to do this work.  Then, when he didn’t respond back quickly enough for my liking, I sent him another message demanding he “hear me.” After his response that he did “hear me” but that he was having a really busy day at work, I continued about my frustrating Monday, anxious and worried that I couldn’t get it all done.

Well, you know what? I did get it all done that day.  I looked at my to-do list with all of the items crossed off, and I wondered why I had freaked out and added to my husbands worries, when there was really no need to. I had basically ruined everyone’s day, including my own, for no reason.

For a while now, I have felt a nudging to look at myself and my reactions to this chaotic life.  You know, it is what it is.  God created us to work and help each other and serve him.  The key is to do those things with the right heart, which is definitely where I am lacking.

As I have been reflecting on this, doing some reading and trying some different things to help myself find some balance in the chaos, I have come up with some strategies that are working well for me (well…most of the time), and I feel led to share them with you.  I’ve narrowed my ideas down and am going to share them in blog posts every two or three nights for the next couple of weeks. I would love to do a post every night, but I learned during Write 31 Days that I have to do my writing early in the morning or after we get the kids in bed at night, and (spoiler) I realize how important my sleep is for me.

Speaking of sleep….I need to go to sleep.  But I do hope you’ll check back in a couple of days and see what I’ve come up with, and I pray it will be a help to someone who is searching for a little balance.

 

 

Weekly Photo Challenge: Peek

Nov 2, 2017
mommyinbonlee

This week’s photo challenge from The Daily Post is “Peek.”

I took this picture when we went to the fair last month.

Jason and I both refused to go on this ride with the kids, because we’re both in the stage of life where we get sick when we spin around too many times.  We left it to Charlie to spin the teacup, and he struggled a bit until he finally gave up and they just rode around in a circle talking about what they were going to ride next.

This was toward the beginning of our day, when I was still concerned with taking pictures. I stood there like a madwoman, trying to get a picture of the kids through the little door in their teacup, but the timing had to be perfect and the door would never quite face where I was standing so I could see both kids.  This was the best one I could get, with Charlie peeking through and a glimpse of Maddie’s head.

31/31 Days!!!!

Oct 31, 2017
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I can’t believe this day is here-day 31 of the Write 31 Days blogging challenge.  It hasn’t been easy for me to write every day, since I have to do it at nighttime after I get the kids in bed and I am usually exhausted at that point.  I feel like I didn’t do a great job writing for that reason, since I didn’t have the time to really work through my thoughts or think about good topics.  I’m pretty proud of myself, though, for just getting my writer’s juices flowing.  I can definitely tell that I am more motivated to write now, which was my goal in taking on this challenge.

This month has been awesome.  Our new batch of chickens started laying eggs. I’m so happy not to have to buy eggs at the grocery store anymore!

We got to do all of the fall things:  make applesauce and apple pies and apple butter, go to the state fair and pumpkin farms with our friends, and take many, many hayrides. Seriously, I don’t care to take any more hayrides.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Then Halloween, of course. We have so much fun with the kids.  They have such great imaginations and they love dressing up all year long, not just at Halloween.  To them, Halloween is an excuse to wear their costumes out of the house and get some candy!

 

For me personally, one great thing about October was that I finally hit my stride in our homeschool.  I feel like I have a good understanding of our new curriculum and we’re on a good daily schedule, which is a huge relief since it took me awhile to get a handle on things.

I feel like this quote sums up my feelings about October:

“October, baptize me with leaves! Swaddle me in corduroy and nurse me with split pea soup. October, tuck tiny candy bars in my pockets and carve my smile into a thousand pumpkins. O autumn! O teakettle! O grace!”-Rainbow Rowell

30/31 Days

Oct 30, 2017
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A friend of mine posted some pictures on Facebook today, and the caption along with one of the pictures said something like “I’m living the life I once prayed for.”

This is so true for me.  I vividly remember my middle school self sitting on my bedroom floor, my back against my white iron daybed, holding my Bible in my lap.  It was a white KJV, and I had a hard time understanding what I was reading.  It was always clear to me, though, that I would be ok.  That my prayers for a nice life one day with a good husband and kids and a home would all be answered.  I just knew it in my heart, and I know now that God was with me every step of the way.

Now here I am, living the life I prayed for 25 years ago, and now I find myself often wondering, “And who knows whether you have not come to the kingdom for such a time as this?” (Esther 4:14b, ESV) I know that these words were spoken to Esther when she was faced with saving the Jewish race, but I can’t help but feel that God also means them for me.

The reminder that I am living the days that I once prayed for gives me new perspective.  The mundane days full of teaching and cleaning and cooking and laundry don’t seem so unimportant.  God put me right here where I am for a specific purpose and this is my “such a time.”

 

29/31 Days

Oct 29, 2017
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Can you guys believe that October is almost over? Time is passing so quickly.  It’s FREEZING outside and the the wind is blowing all night, and I know when I look out the window in the morning the trees will have lost a lot of their leaves.

Tonight was my church’s trunk-or-treat, one of my favorite events each fall.  It grows bigger every year, and tonight was no exception despite the cold and wind.

This little festival is so much fun.  We have hayrides and hotdogs and cake walks and face painting, and a lot more.  The kids love it, and always come home with buckets full of candy.

What I love most about it is seeing my church come together to put on this event.  We’ve been through some difficult times over the last couple of months, and everyone joining together and working hard side-by-side to serve our community was definitely an answer to prayer-prayer for unity and forgiveness, and that we will not lose sight of our ultimate goal: to show Jesus’ love to everyone we can.

I’m going now to continue a Halloween tradition with Jason.  We always spend the days leading up to Halloween watching scary movies.  Usually we watch the Halloween movies, but this year decided to binge-watch Stranger Things on Netflix.  Ya’ll, it is SCARY! I’m scared already just thinking about it….

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